Thursday, May 7, 2009

Momma's Got Some Stress

Well, I've been offline most of this week. I'm sure I've been missed by tens of...well, ten readers.

I'm dealing with an old nemesis: stress & anxiety. I didn't realize this was an issue for me until December of 2004. Since then I've been able to manage it without medication by using techniques like relaxation, meditation, deep breathing, exercise & nutrition. But for the past two weeks I've been struggling with waking up in the middle of the night with my heart racing. Not knowing where the anxiety is coming from has been difficult too - though there are certainly some red-handed culprits (mostly the nonhuman variety) in my life.

Anyway, pulling back from technology is part of my strategy. Do you guys know how much technology (email, cell phones, television, traffic, etc) contributes to mental illness?* Big time, yo. So if you'll excuse me I'll just be over here with the laptop turned off and ignoring my cell phone while I deep breathe.

In closing, Katy accused me of allegedly judging her for crying during Miley Cyrus' "The Climb". The irony there is that a few weeks ago I was all ready to call her and confess, I'm bawling while driving around and belting out, "ain't about how fast I get there, ain't about what's waiting on the other siiiiiide - It's the cliiiiiimb!" (Sidebar: due to my stress levels, it only takes a Top 40 Hit to get Momma crying...much to Daddy's chagrin.)

Like my mom always says, "Oh honey...(sensitive pause) where are you in your cycle?"

*What I mean is that stress can induce certain mental illnesses. Please don't hear me say that if you Twitter and drive in traffic that you will get diagnosed with Bipolar.


Stacey said...

Well I've missed you! But a girl's gotta do what a girl has got to do. I can wait patiently.

I'm so laughing about your mom. Mine says something quite similar, quietly, with a knowing look, "could it be...that time?"

Shauna said...

That song makes me cry everytime! Ashton and I were listening to it together on Saturday in the car and we both cried.
I do believe Becky that I had more anxiety in my life when my children were younger. If you are like me you want to be able to fit so many things into a day so that you can feel like you have accomplished something while still being the perfect mom and oh so sexy wife. I really put a lot of pressure on myself. Looking back at that time I am so glad that I learned that life is just sometimes messy. I still struggle with this though. Know that you are not alone.

lindsay said...

you just take yer sweet time now darlin! I'll try to blog for the both of us but mine won't be HALF as witty and humorous!

Mike and Jess said...

Thinking of you! Definitely take your time away from the crazy vortex of computers and cell phones....I can understand how it contributes to stress, for sure!

dianeroutson said...

Oh, Becky. Once again I feel your stress while laughing at the comment about your mom. I can hear her voice asking you that question. It reminds me of my mother, her mother, your grandmother. It's something she might say.
Relaxation techniques like deep breathing can help. I know, I used to give that advice to my bookstore staff when they were under a lot of pressure. I'd tell them to breathe, and it does work.
Don't stop blogging, though. I know your readers look forward to your posts. And writing can be cathartic, too.
Love to you (and give your mom a big hug for me when you see her!).
Aunt Diane

Kristie said...

I cry when I hear that song and I lead a pretty stress-free life these days. What do you think that means?